Miraculous. <\mə-ˈra-kyə-ləs\>. Webster's dictionary defines it as suggesting a miracle: marvelous. I definitely agree. This past summer has been quite a roller-coaster of a ride. I never thought for a second that I would earn an IMDB, meet numerous celebrities and countless producers as well as industry professionals, and be surrounded by studios. I still can't believe it. I feel like I was blessed with a miracle to be allow this. For the first time in my life, my career is taking off in the right direction. No more talking to people who think they have a general idea of what the business might be. No more fantasizing about working in the industry. No more having to spend every opportunity of every birthday wish on hoping one day to be a producer. It has come true. I am now on my way climbing the very same ladder millions have attempted, but very few have succeeded.
Now, I am more determined than ever, now that I am so close. I can walk away from those who are pretentious dreamers who believe that they are the next Spielberg when in reality they can barely make a infommercial. I can choose from passion projects with beautiful stories or work on less worthy films for rent. I would do my best to pursue stories that will unveil cinematic brilliance to the human eye, but some of those sacrifices will be made to make crapper sequels, but hey someone has got to put dinner on the table. The fact is I, now, have choices. I am able to do what very few are able to do. Do what I love for a living.
Despite all the hours of over-working, extreme amount of unnecessary high stress, and all the social sacrifices I have made, it was all worth it. The internship, the semester in LA, and all the PA jobs in between. I finally established myself, and not only that, but I know which direction to go. Some told me I can definitely stay in this cut throat business, few told me I am a rising star, but only one told me, "I am already proud." My father. He smiles with tears in his eyes and shakes my hand, and congratulates as I announced that I got job offers along side multiple internship offers. His words warms my heart, my soul. Everything my parents sacrificed for me is all so clear. They left everything behind for me. I left them to go to Chicago to do the same. I left to get a better start for my family.
Lately, I have been over-stressed, and I quite often ask myself. "Why am I doing this? Why should I deal with these cluster fuck of idiots? Do I really want to work for these strangers?" Each time the answer is still the same. "I love movies, and there is nothing quite like it. I am doing this for my career. I am doing this for my family. This is for me. This is for all of us. For an opportunity of a better life." Now I get it. Like all those people on those reality shows competing for that prize, I am now one of them playing the game of Survivor in Tinseltown.
It is hard to make a dream a reality, but some how I am surviving those odds. I am making it. I have to make it, because it is all I have got. I have been talking to many of my close friends and they seem to admire my drive and work ethic. Honestly, I do work hard because I hate being bored. I hate sitting there doing nothing. I despise laziness. I work hard, I play hard. Whatever it is I do, it is with passion. That is my secret ladies and gentlemen. I just love everything I do. So maybe you should go out there and do something you love.
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